11dp3dt: So Stinking Close...

So, I bought an HPT last night at WalMart. I want to use the digital one if we get our BFP, but there was only a 7pack in stock... no way was I spending that much money on what might not have worked. The one I did buy was an 88cent test very similar to Dollar Tree's.

Yesterday, my cramping continued w/ occasional nausea. I can say my feeling felt a bit crazy, but not any crazier than if my period was a day away. This morning, my cramps are present, but not so much the nausea.

I woke up several times with the fullest bladder, but didn't even have a cup to use (you know those cheapies!!); I was very tempted, though.

Let me share why I didn't want to test earlier, other than the crushing disappointment that comes with a pee stick BFN.

On December 22, 2008, we found out we were pregnant. The result of that pregnancy is sitting beside me giving me kisses.

Additionally, it is also my parent's 38th wedding anniversary. Pretty special, huh? I hope we have good news for them, but I sure didn't want to present bad news to them, either. {Mom: I totally know you will know now, but I hope this will be good news.}

Also, DH will be off tomorrow starting his 5 day Christmas Weekend off. It will be the first time we are together when we find out.

So, the sappy reasons for not testing early. And the one that I am scared to get a negative.

I might be using an HPT prior to the bloodwork is drawn. Since the lab I go to is out of area for the clinic, I usually have to wait for the results to be faxed, then get a call from the clinic. The previous times, I have gone fairly early to have it drawn around 8am, but I think I'm gonna buck the system & go like 9a or 10a. I will still have to wait the same amount of time for a call back. We'll see. I normally call & leave a voicemail that I've gotten my blood drawn as a heads up, but I'm guessing not that many of them will be in office tomorrow.

I will post when I know either way.

In other news, I think I'm done with my Christmas shopping. I just placed an order on Amazon... I love Amazon Prime! Even better when it's free! :) Hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday!

10dp3dt

Well, yesterday was pretty uneventful, too. Little Bit didn't get a nap, so around 7p he was asleep! And I laid down with him! Woke back up a couple of hours later to do the PIO shot, then couldn't fall back asleep.

I was up for hours on Facebook, Pinterest, & Dr. Google. I even found someone that got a BFN on 10dp3dt, then a BFP on 11dp3dt to then have twins! Crazy & rare from all the searching I've done. ;)

But, I still have resisted the pee stick. In fact, I haven't searched through my meds from last cycle, but I *think* I had one left over. Not positive since I haven't looked yet.

I think the reason I don't want to is because of how let down I have felt getting those BFNs after each IVF. I know you can't trust them, but I guess I feel like if I don't test, then I won't get a negative, then I have a little bit longer to hope.

Late last night, as I sipped soda (shhh... I went over my 8oz allowance...) & sat in front of the computer screen, I felt the nausea kick in. I can't say for sure that I'm not imagining it, but I have also felt nauseaus this morning, too.

And I woke up with cramping. Which I feel kind of happy about. I guess it could mean it worked or not, but in the past it usually is a good sign.

Oh, and while cooking dinner last night, I totally blew up on my husband. I even thought inside "Why am I getting so angry?", slammed the baby gates, & stormed upstairs. Then Google-ed if anger could be a symptom. ;) I always equate mood swings to happy-sad, but I think tempers & anger could be one, too, right? I don't know. Could also be PMS from an impending period?

So, not too much longer to go & the last 12hrs I have gotten really excited about. This afternoon/evening will be spent finishing up Christmas grocery + gift shopping since I will be in town later this evening. Other than driving in for my beta, I plan to stick around the house until Christmas!

Happy Tuesday to You All!

Almost 9dp3dt

Well, today I haven't had much of any symptoms so that makes me feel crazy. Not really any cramps.

But, I've also been busy with family & church stuff. Which has been incredible at keeping my mind off what may be occurring within my body. Maybe because I'm not still, I haven't felt the funky twinges & stretching & cramping?

Here I go grasping at straws. Yall, I don't know what to think.

I also am pretty sure I won't be POAS before beta day, either. Which is both scary & relieving.

Guess that is all!

Hope you all are relaxing for the big week start up! :)

6dp3dt

Just a little update...

Still feeling alright as far as the crazy thoughts go! LOL. My Google-ing has been minimal compared to last time & I have amazing friends that are helping occupy my time! It really has helped.

I still cramp every day. Mostly it is not painful, but like an exhausted-aware-of-my-uterus cramping. I imagine other IFers know what I mean! ;)

My (.)(.)s are extremely tender, but that started before we even did the transfer, so I'm not really counting it. They sure do hurt, though! :(

This sure doesn't seem like that much of an update, huh? LOL. Pretty much that I have been cramping & not too crazy. And plenty of Christmas activities over the weekend to keep my busy... I hope! :)

Have a wonderful Friday!!

Here Goes...

IVF#2 Part B is underway.

Although it doesn't seem like it!

I am on CD5 & just switched out my estrogen patches. I called earlier this morning to schedule my day 13 u/s + b/w. I assume this is very similar to an FET cycle, but not sure?

I need to call again to make sure the insurance authorization is still valid & all.

This is like dejavu for the cycle we had three years ago. Same sort of timeline.

Not too many people even know we are doing this, but like I mentioned... It doesn't even feel like I am doing anything. That is definitely nice!

Normal protocol is day 2 transfer. I am guessing we will be either a day 3 or day 5 as they have made it fairly clear they won't transfer three embryos & we won't have any embryos frozen... so assuming all three eggs survive thaw + fertilize, the longer they grow them out, the less chance all three will be "kicking" on transfer date.

Sure hope I can stay busy during this 2ww. I am gonna try!