Sorry I haven't updated in 3 weeks! I went through such a gammat of emotions in the weeks following the surgery.
Week of surgery: For some odd reason, just at peace & relaxed... well, that could definitely been a huge result of the Percocet & not having to work. Just sleeping every day whenever I got tired or too weak for the arduous duty of watching TV. I think because he couldn't remove the endo off the bladder that I healed quicker than surgery #1.
Week following surgery: I'm pretty sure I cried myself to sleep every night. I was so upset about the situation. I did return to work the Monday following the surgery (1 week) & worked a full 10 hours. (Hmm, haven't been able to work a full 10 since then...) I also went to the doctor's because my incision sites had lots of small pink bumps. It was a reaction to the glue, good that it wasn't an infection festering... but horribly itchy. That weekend, we went camping with our Sunday School at the beach. I pulled the glue off the sites that weekend & soaked in the ocean Saturday evening. They looked so horrible! After the ocean, they dried out & quickly began to heal.
And last week: had the post-op appointment last Wednesday. Pretty much heard what I expected. We need to get pregnant soon or go on meds. He thought December was a good time frame. I cried on the way to the appointment & the way back. I guess it's just so upsetting to me to be at this point. I know you all know what I mean.
It's nice to be doing something towards conquering infertility, but it still sucks tremendously to be here. So that I could feel as though I was progressing, I finally made that call to the IVF nurse after getting the packet in May. I really like the IVF nurse we're working with & she confirmed that we will need ICSI, too. Then spoke with the financial counselor about how much we will need for the ICSI. I got all the dates & stuff for the IVF. We will head over there (Jacksonville... about 2.5 hours away) in October for the IVF consult with the nurse, financial counselor, then the doctor (they say uterine assessment... I assume that means mock transfer?). Then in November, start BCPs & Lupron. Dec4 or Dec26 will be our stim start date.
I'm still trying to decide when to do this. Initially we picked December as our IVF month, but I guess I'm just having 2nd thoughts. If we do it earlier, will my Christmas be miserable wondering if it's successful? Or doing it a bit later so that I have the best chance of finishing nursing school on time? The main part of me doesn't care about the school issue... it is immaterial. The other part of me that's busting my hump trying to get through school now thinks 2 more months may not matter. We have several months to figure this all out, though. So we're just trying to be open to where we're lead.
While at my post-op appointment, my doctor gave me one of their samples of "The Conception Kit". Anyone out there heard of this? It's a 3mth kit with ovulation kits, PreSeed, HPT, & a cervical cap. Basically, it puts the sperm right at the cervix & gives all the swimmers the chance to get right there instead of being killed off before reaching the cervix. It does mention it can't really help with endo, but I think it may help a bit. It gives th sperm a better chance right at the uterus & the immune system won't be fighting it off before it gets there (as endo can cause an increase in the immune response).
Finally got the pics from the surgery today in the mail. Only 3 of them. Pretty disappointing, but I will try to scan & post them this week. If any of ya'll care... I find them highly interesting, so I will! :)
I have definitely been checking everyone else's blogs, even if I'm not commenting as much! I am almost at full functioning, except I am still fatigued & have started my cycle again, so I'm now in a great deal of pain. Lots of ibuprofen & Tylenol & rest.
Hope everyone out there is doing well!
